Sometimes I sit alone and think, is there any one change I can make right now to become the best version of myself? This thought keeps running in my head. Who do I want to be? Do I want to be like my father, who is the real hero of my life and can do anything for me without hesitation?
Or do I want to be like my mother, who is the strongest yet kindest person I have ever known, someone who carries a heart bigger than anyone else in this world? Or maybe I want to be like my brothers, who are walking steadily on the path our parents showed us, choosing what suits them best.
These questions never leave me. They visit me at night, making me stare at the ceiling while the world sleeps peacefully. And I know I am not alone in this. Around me, many people are searching for their own answers.
They are trying different things, giving their hard work, their sweat, and their time to what they believe in. Some succeed, some fail. Many quit and jump to the next thing. But one thought keeps echoing inside me - does this choice of trying and leaving exist for me too?
After thinking deeply, I realized my answer is no. For me, choices are not to be taken lightly. I cannot spend my precious years running from one thing to another, killing time on what does not matter. I have to choose carefully, because the path I pick today will decide the face I want to present to the world tomorrow.
It is not just about the job I will get. It is not only about what society will say. For me, the biggest question is - will my parents be satisfied when they see me working? More than that, will I be satisfied? Will I be able to do all the things I dream of doing for my family? These thoughts weigh on me, but they also guide me.
Life is not about just running blindly and comparing with others. It is more like a journey where at some point, you stop, think, and decide which road to walk on.
My parents have already shown me with their lives what strength, sacrifice, and love mean. My brothers have already shown me how to walk with focus. Now it is on me to take these lessons and turn them into a life that feels true to me.
And maybe the most important thing is this - it is never too late. Everyone has their own time and their own way. I feel a person can change anytime, the day he decides from inside that now I want to be different. For me also, the answer is not so complicated.
I just have to choose one thing which feels right to me and give my best to it. With the love of my family behind me, and with my own belief, I know I can walk towards the life I want. And when that time comes, the face I will show to the world will not be someone else’s - it will just be mine.